Discouragement and encouragement

So, we got some discouraging news. 

While in Hampton, we decided to stop by the credit union that we belong to and talk to them about a loan.  We don't want to wait until we are matched to come up with the money.  We'd rather be prepared.  So, we got some bad news.  Because of the fact that we don't have anything that they can hold against us or anything to borrow against, they won't give us the loan.  We have good credit and they weren't concerned about us making payments.  We do own a house, but because we bought at the peak of the housing market and since then, the value of our house has gone down, that it out of the question.  We do have two vehicles, but neither one is worthy of helping us out with a loan. 

I cannot lie.  I was VERY discouraged.  VERY.  To the point of being in tears for over an hour.  It felt like another door was closing and the hope that I had felt just a few days earlier was slipping through my fingers.  I started seeing us as that couple that watches everyone else have a family.  That couple that is lonely and spends more Christmas vacations just as a family of 2.  It was a very, very dark place to be. 

Then, I'm encouraged by the amount of support and love we have felt from family about our decision to adopt, especially the encouragement we have gotten while around family this Christmas.   I have to remind myself that we will find a way, that maybe God has to help us realize that we can't do this by ourselves, that the only way it will happen is with His power and will.