Question

So, while I just don't have the energy to update with more of our story tonight, (Sorry Melody), I do have a question for those of you who actually read this.

Right after we found out that this baby is a girl, we were walking around Target and I saw a cute outfit on clearance.  I couldn't help myself and so, I bought it, dreaming of this little girl wearing it.  While I could keep it, in hopes of one day having a child to wear it, I kind of want to send it to the birth mom.  In my mind, it belongs to this little girl, getting ready to be welcomed into the world in just a few short weeks.  What is your opinion?

Once Upon A Time (Part 1)

I know most of your guys know our story and how we even came to the point that we are interested in adoption, but some of you don't.  So, I thought I'd blog about it, a little bit at a time.

Once Upon A Time.....

Dave and I got married in June of 2003.  I had gone on birth control before our wedding because we didn't want a honeymoon baby or any early marriage surprise.  We wanted kids, but we wanted to wait a while before we started our family.  We even told everyone in our family that we would be married for five years before we started having kids.  Yeah, that was a joke.

After our first Christmas together with just the two of us, I knew that there was no way that we were waiting five years.  I was already getting the "baby itch".   At my yearly doctor's appointment that next October of 2004, I mentioned to the doctor that we wanted to start trying and that we were going to go off of the pill.  So, she wished us well, gave me tons of information, recommended that I start prenatal vitamins, and I left the office with a huge smile on my face.  I knew that it could take a while, one of the reasons that we wanted to go ahead and start trying, but I just knew that babies were in our near future.  I had no idea that just a little over a month later, I would take a test and see not one pink line, but two.

(To be continued.....)

A EXCELLENT Article

Here's a blog that I read that describes a lot of how this whole adoption thing feels.

http://alwaysandforeverfamily.blogspot.com/2009/09/dont-miss-boat.html

Holidays and Encouragement

So, while I'm still at peace with all of this, I was a little sad tonight.
We were driving home from having supper with friends for Dave's birthday and we were talking about his marathon in November.  We then started talking about Thanksgiving and Christmas plans and if we'll be able to go home to Virginia during that time.
This, of course, got me thinking about the fact that after we got the news that we were going to get this baby, that I was excited about Christmas.  Ever since our miscarriage, Christmas has been bittersweet for me.  Yes, I love spending time with family and being in the Christmas spirit (if that's possible when it's warm outside), but at the same time, it's just another reminder that it's just the two of us.  It's kind of sad and lonely.  When everyone rushes home after Christmas Eve service to get their kids in bed so that Santa can come, we go home to our quiet house, just the two of us and our pups.  Now, I know that someday, somehow, that we will have a Christmas spent with VBK kids, full of excitement and smiles,  but I was just hoping that those lonely Christmas holidays were long gone.

On a much, much, lighter note, here's a blog that I thought you guys might enjoy.  It's been a big encouragement to me, especially here recently.  http://rebekahpinchback.blogspot.com/

Home Visit

So, after tons of facebook messages, texts, and phone calls, I decided to start a blog to keep everyone informed. :-)

Just wanted to let you all know that our home visit part of our home study was today and it was quick and easy. She basically took a 10 second tour (not exaggerating) of our house and then sat down and talked with us for about 30 minutes. Very informal and very easy. We still have paperwork to finish and background checks to complete, but once we get that done, she will type up our home study and we will be done with this part of our journey.

As of right now, the opportunity to adopt the baby girl is pretty much a no go. The birth mom knows that we are still interested and that we are here if she decides differently, but at this point, she's decided to keep the baby. Dave and I are at peace with this and we are very thankful to know before we got lawyers involved.

Right now, we're just getting the home study done, we might try some fertility stuff, and then look into adoption more if that doesn't work. The home study lady will pass information to us if a baby "become available" after our home study has gone through. We'll also have the opportunity to send information to lawyers and agencies, if we wish, and that could open doors. Right now, we're not sure where God is leading us, but we're open to starting our family however God sees fit.

As the home study lady said today, "With adoption, it's not if you get a baby, it's when." Thanks for all of your prayers.