Prayers for Tomorrow

I'm asking for your prayers for tomorrow.  Why, you ask, are prayers important for tomorrow?

Tomorrow, I will tell Tater's birthmother that we are moving.  We are not legally bound to tell her that we are moving, but because we love and respect her, we will.  My stomach is in knots already.

I texted her today asking if she and her kids would like to go to the zoo with Tater and I in the morning since Dave is going to be busy at church for the work day.  We haven't seen her in a while and I knew that it would be nice to spend some time with them.  She texted back that she was available, but that her mom and other family members were planning on taking the kids to the beach tomorrow and give her the day off, meaning that it will just be the three of us, Tater and his two mothers.  Now, to be honest, that excited me.  It will give us, the two people that both hold the title as his mother, some time to really focus on Tater and love on him.  The time that the three of us spent together that first night in the hospital will always be a special time and I feel that tomorrow will be the same.

After I got over the excitement of being able to spend time with her tomorrow, I realized that his was probably God's way of giving me the opportunity to talk to her about our move without a lot of distractions.  And then I started getting nervous.

I know in my heart that she will be okay with the news, that because she trusted us enough to chose us to be the parents of her son, she trusts us enough to know that the decisions we make are what's best for us as a family.  I know these things.  But I also know that it will make her sad.  We've been blessed to be able to share Tater's life with her, not only through pictures and updates, but with visits and obviously, those visits will be few and far between now.

So just pray for me to have the right words and to know the right time to say them and for her, as she hears the news, to have peace and know that our communication with her will not change because of this.