So Many Questions

Facebook status from Saturday: 

Tonight is one of those nights when I have a lot of my mind, when the thoughts of being a loving family to a foster child is both exciting and overwhelming, when I find myself praying for our future child and for our hearts, especially the heart of a three year old little boy.

Tonight, we worked on the baby/kid room. Dave worked hard to remove the cabinets that were in the room and put together the crib and changing table. It is still a major work in progress, but it's really starting to come together.

Tomorrow, we have our last adoption class. We will graduate from the PRIDE classes and now that all of our paperwork has been turned in, we are just two home visits away from being certified as foster/adopt parents. 

As we get closer to getting things ready for our next child, my mind is constantly filled with thoughts of what if, when, and how. How will we all adjust? When will we get the call? What if the baby lives with us for a long time and then returns to their birth family? How long will this nursery stay empty before a child sleeps in this crib?

Trying my best to put my trust in the One who already knows what the future holds for this family. Trying not to be anxious about things that I don't have control over. Trying to breathe and enjoy my family of three.