Without....
...the miscarriage in 2005, we may never have been in this place at this time. Things would be completely different for us. We would have an almost five year old and wow, I can't imagine what our life would have been like. We may never have even moved here to Florida, knowing that our kids would be so far away from our families.
...all of my gallbladder problems, we may have chosen to go the infertility route instead of adoption. We went to the doctor in November 2008 and talked about trying the IUI. Right after we went, I got very sick and for the longest time, the doctors had no idea what was going on. After months of feeling like I was sick 24/7 and losing a ton of weight since I was constantly sick, they realized it was my gallbladder. The fertility doctor wanted me to get "all better" before we moved forward with treatments.
...a dear authentic friend who has let me cry, rant, and more to her, I would probably have gone crazy.
...a phone call over the summer about a possible adoption, we may not have really started exploring our options.
...K and the possible adoption of Baby A, which by the way is beautiful, we would not have moved forward with the adoption paperwork as quickly as we did.
...a loving family that is like family that helped us not only get our home study done, but get it done quickly, we would not have been prepared and ready.
...an adoption agency that allows ministers to list for free, we may not have listed our profile and gotten it done so quickly.
...loving families that have supported and helped us with some of the financial obligations, this adoption would not be possible.
...a loan that we were able to take out, this adoption would be completely and utterly impossible.
...a friend that had a connection with a social worker at the local hospital, we never would have known about J and N.
..Walgreens making a mistake on one of our profile books and sending us three extras to cover their mistake, we would not have had a profile ready to go when we got the call.
...a friend that was willing to cover after school care for me the day that we got the call in order for me to drop off our profile, it might have been too late for us to be considered.
...a friend that just happened to be spending the night with me (since Dave was out of town) the day that the attorney needed our profile, I probably would not have driven downtown by myself and would have missed the opportunity to get our profile to the attorney.
...a call that I received on the five year anniversary of our miscarriage saying that J wanted to meet us, it would have been yet another sad day.
...friends and family giving us stuff for baby N, our nursery would not be as complete as it is today.
...all of you, praying and encouraging us, we would not be able to make it through.
...God, who has brought this all together in His time, I would never feel this blessed.
Friday, March 5, 2010
Thursday, March 4, 2010
J's Appointment
First, I just want to say how awesome it is that God has allowed us to be a part of this adoption. J asking us to go today and being able to go with her to her appointment was more than what I could have dreamed of or imagined. :)
We showed up today and our first stop was a stress test for the baby. N performed beautifully. We got to hear his precious heartbeat, which was right around 145, and it was a wonderful sound to hear. He got "zapped" close to the end of the test to make sure all was well and he was NOT happy for a few minutes. His heart rate went up to about 160 then. He did not want to be messed with! haha
The next stop was my favorite part. She had a small sonogram to check the amniotic fluid and we got to see him! Oh, he is so handsome, as handsome as one can be on a sonogram. He's head down and ready to go. He did NOT want to look at the camera and kept turning his head when the camera came close. He's really, really gonna have to get over it and have to get used to looking at the camera. :)
At one point of the sonogram, Dave mentioned that it must be a good sonogram because he could actually tell that N was on his back with his hand on his chest. Right when he said this, N gave us a nice wave of his fingers. J said that he was waving at his daddy. Can't wait to kiss those little fingers.
The last part of the appointment was her normal check up. Dave sat this one out, for the most part, but J wanted me in there for the whole thing. :) She's dilated to 1cm and the doctor said she's thinning. She was pretty excited and is so ready "to go". Before we left, they sent word to the hospital to put her c-section on the books and get everything scheduled.
Got a text from J later this afternoon. The official date and time have been set. Unless N decides that he wants to show his face before then, we'll be having a baby boy on March 19th. Looks like 6:30 is the arrival time at the hospital. I know, for a fact, that I'm not going to sleep at all the night before. Maybe we should throw a Pre-N party or something. :)
Again, and I can't say this enough, thank you for your prayers.
We showed up today and our first stop was a stress test for the baby. N performed beautifully. We got to hear his precious heartbeat, which was right around 145, and it was a wonderful sound to hear. He got "zapped" close to the end of the test to make sure all was well and he was NOT happy for a few minutes. His heart rate went up to about 160 then. He did not want to be messed with! haha
The next stop was my favorite part. She had a small sonogram to check the amniotic fluid and we got to see him! Oh, he is so handsome, as handsome as one can be on a sonogram. He's head down and ready to go. He did NOT want to look at the camera and kept turning his head when the camera came close. He's really, really gonna have to get over it and have to get used to looking at the camera. :)
At one point of the sonogram, Dave mentioned that it must be a good sonogram because he could actually tell that N was on his back with his hand on his chest. Right when he said this, N gave us a nice wave of his fingers. J said that he was waving at his daddy. Can't wait to kiss those little fingers.
The last part of the appointment was her normal check up. Dave sat this one out, for the most part, but J wanted me in there for the whole thing. :) She's dilated to 1cm and the doctor said she's thinning. She was pretty excited and is so ready "to go". Before we left, they sent word to the hospital to put her c-section on the books and get everything scheduled.
Got a text from J later this afternoon. The official date and time have been set. Unless N decides that he wants to show his face before then, we'll be having a baby boy on March 19th. Looks like 6:30 is the arrival time at the hospital. I know, for a fact, that I'm not going to sleep at all the night before. Maybe we should throw a Pre-N party or something. :)
Again, and I can't say this enough, thank you for your prayers.
Appointment
I'm up and moving. It felt wonderful to "sleep in", even though that meant just an extra 20 minutes or so.
Dave and I are headed to J's/N's weekly appointment today and I'm excited and nervous. Not really sure why I'm nervous, but I just am. Maybe it's because it's one step closer to bringing him home. :)
I'm going to try to get a pic of J's pregnant belly today.
N's bedding, from our friends in Virginia, arrived yesterday!!!!!!! Couldn't be happier. I took some pictures and will upload them tonight if I can.
AND..............14 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Gotta run and get ready to leave.
Dave and I are headed to J's/N's weekly appointment today and I'm excited and nervous. Not really sure why I'm nervous, but I just am. Maybe it's because it's one step closer to bringing him home. :)
I'm going to try to get a pic of J's pregnant belly today.
N's bedding, from our friends in Virginia, arrived yesterday!!!!!!! Couldn't be happier. I took some pictures and will upload them tonight if I can.
AND..............14 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Gotta run and get ready to leave.
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Really???
Really??? Is my ticker correct??? Are we really 15 days away from N's arrival??? It's hard to believe. :)
Also, have you seen my website counter? Since New Year's Night, I have had more than 11,000 hits on my website. How super crazy is that! It's awesome to know that so many people are praying for us, for J, and for our little man. I am totally feeling the love!
Dave and I are headed to J's weekly appointment tomorrow to hear all about N and his arrival. SO looking forward to it and so thankful that God has put us in a situation where the birthmother, J, wants us to be involved. I will try to take my camera and if you're super nice, I might even get and upload a pic of J's pregnant belly. (She's really dropped.)
Okay...off to school! Thanks for your prayers and encouragement.
Also, have you seen my website counter? Since New Year's Night, I have had more than 11,000 hits on my website. How super crazy is that! It's awesome to know that so many people are praying for us, for J, and for our little man. I am totally feeling the love!
Dave and I are headed to J's weekly appointment tomorrow to hear all about N and his arrival. SO looking forward to it and so thankful that God has put us in a situation where the birthmother, J, wants us to be involved. I will try to take my camera and if you're super nice, I might even get and upload a pic of J's pregnant belly. (She's really dropped.)
Okay...off to school! Thanks for your prayers and encouragement.
Monday, March 1, 2010
Too Much
It's almost too much, too much that I'm going to be a mom in 17 days or less.
I have so many emotions right now. Some are good, some confusing, some are even contradictory.
There's a part of me that feels like this time is dragging on, that these next 17 days are going to be the longest 17 days of my life. That I can't wait to see him, hold him, smell the sweet baby smell. That I can't wait to officially be a mom.
There's also a part of me that thinks that time is flying by. Every now and then, I'll be reminded that in just 17 days or less, my life is going to change forever. Dave and I were talking about weekend plans tonight and all of the sudden, I was thinking about how quickly "our" weekends are ending, how our time as a couple is coming to a close. At times, I feel like I can't breathe, thinking about my time slipping through my fingers and all the things I want to get done.
There is a part of me that wants to scrub the entire house from top to bottom and organize every section of the house.
There's another part of me that wants to take this time to relax, take a few extra baths, and read, something I know I'll be doing little of once he's here.
I'm excited about all that is happening, overjoyed about having a son, about bringing him home and being a family.
I'm also scared, not that she will change her mind, but how I will handle all of this. Getting to know J, I feel for her and feel her sorrow. I'm sure that, as much as I don't want to, I'll probably cry and use an entire box of tissues.
So, yes, I'm a little overwhelmed, but in a good way and for a good reason.
I have so many emotions right now. Some are good, some confusing, some are even contradictory.
There's a part of me that feels like this time is dragging on, that these next 17 days are going to be the longest 17 days of my life. That I can't wait to see him, hold him, smell the sweet baby smell. That I can't wait to officially be a mom.
There's also a part of me that thinks that time is flying by. Every now and then, I'll be reminded that in just 17 days or less, my life is going to change forever. Dave and I were talking about weekend plans tonight and all of the sudden, I was thinking about how quickly "our" weekends are ending, how our time as a couple is coming to a close. At times, I feel like I can't breathe, thinking about my time slipping through my fingers and all the things I want to get done.
There is a part of me that wants to scrub the entire house from top to bottom and organize every section of the house.
There's another part of me that wants to take this time to relax, take a few extra baths, and read, something I know I'll be doing little of once he's here.
I'm excited about all that is happening, overjoyed about having a son, about bringing him home and being a family.
I'm also scared, not that she will change her mind, but how I will handle all of this. Getting to know J, I feel for her and feel her sorrow. I'm sure that, as much as I don't want to, I'll probably cry and use an entire box of tissues.
So, yes, I'm a little overwhelmed, but in a good way and for a good reason.
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