3/23 Pics and Update

N had a little bit of a rough morning.  When we got there a little after noon, he had been given the score of 12.  Not so good when we're looking for low numbers.  Dave had to leave to go back to work, but I got to stay and stare at my little glow worm.  He was a little fussy, but nothing I couldn't handle.  I got to hold him the entire afternoon.  The pediatrician made her rounds, looked at him, and didn't seem concerned.  Told me that she would be back later to see if things were better.  When she came back by later, he had been moved down to a 7!!!!!  So much better.  Not the four that we're looking for, but we'll get there.  He's had lots of poopy diapers and even peed all over himself, his clothes, and his blankets today while Daddy was changing him!  haha 

Good news:  No More Feeding Tube!!!!!!!!

Pray for me.  I'm headed back to work tomorrow.  As much as I want to stay at the hospital, I need to work in order to have some time off when he comes home.  It's going to be hard to focus at school knowing that my little man is waiting for me.  Such is life, though, right?  

And...what you all are looking for:  Pictures!  :)

More Pictures from 3/22

Papa wishing that his Grandbaby would wake up.  

I love his little ears.

I call him my little glow worm.  They always have him all wrapped up and most of the time, all you can see is his head.  

Grammy loving her Grandbaby.  

Our first picture as an official family of 3!  

Grammy, Daddy, and the Little Man.

Trish and I went back to the NICU last night, in hopes of him being awake.  Nope!  Had just been put to sleep when we walked in, so all we got to do was look at him for two hours.  Still worth it.  

3/22 Pics and Update

I have more pictures from today, but it is taking them FOREVER to upload.  I would love to stay up and upload them for you, but I'm exhausted and just need to sleep.  :)

He is doing well, but we still have a long road ahead of us.  His scores were better today, around a 6, but went back up tonight.  I have to remind myself that the meds are just now leaving his system and his body is trying to adjust, something it can have a hard time doing.  

Today was really emotional for me.  Having him as my son is the greatest blessing that I will have and knowing that it causes J so much pain makes me want to cry.  Just sitting here typing it makes tears come to my eyes.  I'll write more about this later.

Here are some pictures.  More will come later.  

Here's daddy changing his first dirty diaper.  :)

N eating his breakfast, well, I guess more like lunch.  

Papa looking at his grandbaby!  :)  

He is officially ours!!!!!
Welcome to the family, Tater!!!!!

3/21 Update

Today was a much better day than yesterday.  :)

Just in case you didn't see my last update (since I did it through my phone).
N weighed in today at 6 lbs. 13 oz.  While we don't want him to lose weight, they are not too concerned with this since he hadn't eaten much at all yesterday and with his tremors, he loses weight through burning calories.

Right now, they give the babies scores after each meal and we want low numbers.  Yesterday, N scored a 17, which was not very good.  Today, when we got there, his score was a 10 and by the time we left, he had moved down to a 6.  Once he moves down to a 4 or below, they will reduce his dose of meds and then we start all over again.  His scores will probably go back up when they reduce the meds and then we'll work on bringing them back down until it's time to reduce his dose again.  It's just a matter of time.

He was much more at ease today and didn't seem to be in any pain.  Still has some tremors, but nothing like before.  He had a good poop diaper saved just for me.  I told another NICU mom that it's amazing when we celebrate things like taking 15 ml of formula and seeing "good" poop.

It's amazing to hold him and look at him, knowing that I love him so much and he didn't even come from my own body and doesn't share my blood.  He felt like mine since the moment I heard him crying.  I am in love.

We are looking forward to tomorrow, the day that J will sign the papers, as much as one can.  My heart breaks for her and just thinking about her sacrifice brings tears to my eyes.  She loves him so much and just wants what is best for him.  Breaks my heart.  I have nothing but respect for her.

So, please pray for her tomorrow, for us, and for everyone involved.  Pray that all will go as planned.

Thanks for all of your thoughts, prayers, and words of encouragement.  It's so nice to get home and have emails and comments that let me know that you guys care.

Wanted to give an update. N is doing better today. He was able to keep food down last night and ate a good meal today, but he lost the last bit of it. :( He is weighing in at 6lbs 13 oz. His score is lower today than yesterday (and we want lower), but still has a long road ahead of him. Will give a better update later when i can update from my computer instead of my phone.

N Pics 3/20/10

Thank you for all of your prayers and words of encouragement.  

(For those of you who don't know what I'm talking about, go see my last post.)  

Wanted to share some pictures from yesterday.  Enjoy!