So much for a relaxing Saturday!

I was really looking forward to a relaxing Saturday.  I had visions of sleeping in, spending some time with my authentic friend, Trish, as we cafe shopped, and possibly going to the zoo with Dave.

I did get to sleep in.  :)  I was sleeping so well this morning, until .....

....my phone rang around 10:45 and I didn't recognize the number.  Because I was still half asleep when the call came, I let it go to voicemail.  I listened to my message and oh my, it was about a possible situation.

I had spoken to an another adoption agency here in Jax this past week about a possible situation, which isn't an option for us.  The head lady was calling to tell me that a baby girl is due THIS FRIDAY, February 5th.  The lady wanted to know if we would be interested.  We said yes and that we wanted more info.

Instantly, my feelings were torn.  Yes, this possible baby girl was exciting.  There are some things that are really good about this baby.  I still felt torn, though, when it came to J.  I felt that, if we went with this baby, that we had given her false hope.  Yes, there are things that scare us about J's situation, but I feel connected, not only to her baby boy, but to her and her situation.  I went back and forth with my emotions all afternoon.  Could we do this?  Would we be turning our backs on baby boy and J?  Was I ready to say no to baby boy?

About 4 hours later, I got some more info about baby girl and it doesn't look good.  The situation is good, but there are major concerns when it comes to the health of the baby.  So, while we do plan on getting our profile to the adoption lady, unless we find out that the information is different from what we were told, it is probably a no go.

We are still planning on meeting with the attorney on Monday to talk about J.  I'm hoping that she can "make things work" how we want them to be and how she said she could set them up.

I'll keep you guys updated!!!